My lockdown 3 - The New Beginning

 Note: Before reading this blog I suggest you to read previous blogs of this series, "My Lockdown 1 - The Fall" and "My Lockdown 2 - The Rise", if you did please do read once again.

After a few days I realized that I am not able to see with my left eye. We rushed to the hospital. My doctor after examining understood that my eye needs special treatment and referred me to another sophisticated hospital with doctors of much wider experience. It was diagnosed that the optic nerve of my left eye was damaged and the doctors immediately started treating it (the treatment which had to begin in the former hospital where it was not diagonized, not because of negligence though. Better late than never).

I missed my CDSEs and SSBs during treatment. Over a period of time I understood that I was no more medically fit for joining the armed forces (my goal at that point of time). It's been a couple of years since my treatment started, the improvement has been great. Meanwhile, I rejoined my company. On the advice of my doctor I left my job after couple of months and came home. I took rest for 2 more months and thought about my future. The plans of my career lay shattered, my treatment was still in progress and some more rest would only make my brain idle. An empty brain is a devil's den, I did not want my brain to be it.

The regular tests to track the recovery of my optic nerve were only stressing me and I started over eating, slowly loosing control of my mental and physical health. After a while, I understood that through constantly monitoring myself and decided to take control of my physical and mental health. I set new goals, started pushing myself towards them. Today, though I have not reached my goals, I feel better than the day I started and would continue this journey till my goals are achieved. I am sure I would not stop there, for what is life but persistent struggle for well being of people around us and inner peace.

- G. Srinidhi rao.

SOCIAL MEDIA

 

It’s been a while since I am using the social media and I feel I have enough experience to talk about it. All I want to express in this blog, is my experience with social media, its power to influence someone and the ways to overcome the influence. Though this is a vast topic, I have tried to keep it short and to the point.

Social Media:

                I remember, my dad getting me a smartphone after joining in an engineering college. I was excited about getting into touch with people far away from me virtually. I even allotted myself some time to spend on social media and followed that.

                It’s a really great thing that we who were used to dial up and talk to people or wrote letters, now, shall video call and can literally see each other in real time with just our hand-sets, and not any computers with cameras!

                The Facebook posts, the Whatsapp chats and groups, the streaks of Snapchat, I mean everything just felt amazing!

Influence of Social Media:

                As said by someone, everything has its pros and cons, the social media also has both the ends. It had the power of keeping people together in spite of the distance between them and it was also powerful enough to keep the user’s eye attached to the phone’s screen and isolate him/her from the surroundings and the people around. I started experiencing the former while my parents felt the later. However, I was having a good time.

                The time of me being on social media occupied a good part of the day. During vacations it went up to almost the total day. And this continued even after completion of my graduation. All I did was sitting idle and scrolling through instagram feeds, whatsapp chats, snaps of snapchat and videos on youtube. The time I was spending on social media ranged from 12-14 hours/day!

Overcoming the influence:

                Given the above information, one can understand how much I was into social media. It’s not like that I haven’t tried overcoming the social media addiction. In spite of my efforts I couldn’t overcome that. By this time, I have completed my graduation and was doing nothing but being on social media. I thought that it’s high time, I need to overcome this addiction and start being prosperous in some or the other way. I sat down, wrote down the plan and I started implementing it. Few months down the line, the usage of social media reduced to 1-2 hours/day! Now, after 1 year of this whole process, the time I spend my time on social media is < 1 hour/day. Comparatively today, I feel more accomplished and satisfied about what I am, what I do and how I do.

                Having done all this successfully, I felt I need to share this experience of mine, with all of you. Here are some basic things that I followed to make sure I spent least time on social media:

1.      Make plan and stick to it.

2.   Set small goals, achieve and reward yourself.

3.   Track the progress weekly, not daily.

4.   Remember, you aren’t done after reaching the goal. You are, only when you make it your habit or a part of yours.

PS: These points not only apply to social media addiction but also every other kind of. All you need is self-discipline, commitment and the picture of outcome flashing in front of your eyes whenever you blink.

 

-  Gonwar Srinidhi rao.  

My Lockdown 2 - The Rise

 Note: Before reading this blog I suggest you to read "My Lockdown 1", if you did please do read once again.

    "Vatsa!" said my sharp voice. "Haa anna" was the reply. "I want to go for a walk, shall we?" I asked. "OK", was the reply. It was 2-3AM when we went walking through the corridors. This didn't happen for a day or two but every other day. My brother used to hold my hand and walk with me through the hospital corridors. The treatment and physiotherapy were really helping, I could walk with a little help, write with a bit shiver and talk with few mumbles. My brother, uncle and dad helped me in all the ways they could and no one can imagine. Of course, family is the one of the best things that happen to anyone. 

    The following morning I was told that I would be discharged within a couple of days. I was delighted to hear that, as it was my parents wedding anniversary after the day I am going to get discharged. So, I thought of giving them a simple,  yet precious gift. The evening of the next day, I got discharged, walked to our car on my own and left to home after spending around 10 days in the hospital.

    The next day, the D-day, as soon as I woke up everyone, at home were busy with their works. I sat up, grabbed a paper and pen, wrote down, " HAPPY WEDDING ANNIVERSAY MOM & DAD ", with my shivering hand and gave it as a present to them. Their eyes filled with joy and delight. They wanted my fastest recovery and it was clear for them that I was recovering at a good pace. 

    After physiotherapy for 2 more weeks I started going for a walk with my dad. He held my hand just like he did, when I was kid. This happened for a week. I was walking good, speaking great & writing neatly. It was just 4 weeks from the day my doctor's words devastated my family. Finally, I chased down my challenge that I set for myself.

      It felt like everything was coming into my control.  But,......

To be continued....... 

- G Srinidhi rao

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My Lockdown 1 - The Fall

     "He might not be able to speak, write or walk properly for at least 6 months," doctor declared. My mother broke into tears after hearing that. I was lying there, on the hospital bed helplessly, unable to move my right limbs. I knew this was not the end. But s your mother in tears affects you the most (13th October, 2020).

    I met with an accident almost a week ago (on 5th October,2020) and fainted. Thanks to the people at the site, without them I don't know what would have happened to me. They gave me first aid and took me to the best hospital available as soon as possible. Meanwhile, the mishap was informed to my office and family. They all rushed in with all the help they could. This all happened at around 10:30 AM. As I woke up around 7:00 PM, I saw my parents waiting for me to gain conscious. I felt fine and left for home with my parents.

    Though I seemed normal for the next 5 days, it was on 11th October,2020, I puked and felt something strange happening with my body. I was immediately rushed to the nearby hospital that could treat me. I under went some scans and tests & the doctor completely understood my situation. I was immediately admitted into ICU and was treated accordingly. The night between 11th and 12th October, 2020, I couldn't understand what was happening to my body. I wasn't comfortable at all. My mother and aunt were totally exhausted making me comfortable.

    The next morning (12th October,2020), I was shifted into special ward for better medication and  comfort. Slowly, I started understanding and accepting what was happening to my body. My right limbs turned numb and there were some minor clots in my brain. Medication was given for the clots. My neurosurgeon suggested physiotherapy for my limbs to recover. The medication and physiotherapy started from the same day.

    The next day i.e. on 13th October, 2020, the doctor's words devastated my family. That was the time when I decided myself that I would walk, speak and write again, just like before, in less than 4 weeks. Though I didn't know how tough it was to reach my target, I set it and took it as a challenge.

To be continued........

- Gonwar Srinidhi Rao.

Special mentions:

1. Mr. Arun, AE, APSPDCL.

2. Mr. Ramprasad, Site engineer, ARPSL.

3. Mr. Ravi Maruthi Reddy, M.D., YESPL.

4. Mr. Rambabu, Assistant manager, YESPL.

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PROLOUGUE: 

I met with an accident on 5th of October, 2020 which after few days, led to clots in my left eye and brain, paralyzing my right limbs. After being admitted in hospital and proper treatment I was able to walk with a little help by 19th of October, 2020. After everything seemed normal, I learnt that even after clearing of clot in the left eye, my vision wasn't clear. My neurologist referred me to another neuro-physician and an ophthalmologist and I was treated accordingly. Tomorrow, I need to go through a test which would determine the progress of the treatment or in other words, recovery of my eye.

THE TEST 

I have been through this not once, not twice but a number of times anyone can imagine. Here, I am speaking about the tests I have given in my 24 years of life (till now). But the test I am going to give tomorrow is a special one. It may fix & strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else makes me change my goal & start over things again.

This test doesn't have any syllabus to go through and revise enough number of times. It is neither a practical so that I can by heart the process & required data. I believe it, as a test that would change my life or else keep me in my current life with more liveliness & laugh.

It's the "vision field test" for my left eye whose optic nerve is compressed by small fractures that occurred as a result of an accident on October 5, 2020. this may be a simple test, but for a 24 year old guy who never used a pair of spectacles and was full of life and laugh, met with an accident, bed ridden for 2 weeks and then learnt that he has blurred (almost no) vision with his left eye, dealing with PTSD, after treatment of 6 weeks and idleness of 8 weeks isn't a simple thing.

[All the above mentioned details weren't for sympathy but for empathy and better understanding only.]

It's been more than a month for me awaiting this test. It has become so much prominent that almost everything of my life is dependent on it. However, I am ready for either of the results of the test, positive or negative. I can strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else change my goal & start over again. Hope, everything that is going to happen tomorrow is for, not only mine but for everyone's good and prosperity. 

- Gonwar Srinidhi Rao.

Frustrated Independent Women

Disclaimer : Raw Language used

Well the title already made you judge me?! I understand , people can take frustrated women and independent women but the three words together don't go that well.

You might have drawn some conclusions already:

I have a boyfriend.
I booze.
I have more male friends.
I use bad language.
I am a bitch.

Some of them are true and some aren't. Unfortunately you won't know what is true. Now what?!

It's not that women are emotionless, infact they are more sensitive and fragile but when she speaks more she is taken as a bitch and when not she is an egoist or in other ways she attracts men else is narrow minded.

There is so much of development and technology that we have access to today, our education system changed our advances with people changed. We are more open to foreign cultures, not just accepting them but also practicing them.

But is this really true?

Then why do we still hesitate to accept the choices of women?

Parents bhi alag level pe hote hein.

Bolte hein " Ja simran jeele apni zindagi, par 8.30pm tak ghar aajana. "
Seriously?! Is that freedom?!

Aur ek dialogue maarte hein 

" I believe you par society aachi nahi hein. "

By mistake agar boyfriend ho tho khatam.

" Baby I trust you but what was that xyz doing with you last evening!?"

My ideal response 

" Dear stupid, i work and stay in an environment where i have to be around guys and yes we hangout as well. Iska matlab ye nahi hota ki mein terko cheat kar rahi hu. When I commit for you, I am in."

Par ye usse samaj mein aatha tab na.

Friends are no less. Kyu kaam kar rahi ho? Why work so hard when you will eventually marry?! Why compromise your personal life?

Dude! If i was just to marry then why the hell did i pass all the exams, work so hard to score well in boards. 

I shouldn't marry because society feels it's right time or relatives question the family. I should and will marry only when I feel I need to, where in both of us are confident enough that we can settle together and not that I ask him money for everything.

I understand that all of us are made different biologically, but this difference should not be used to discriminate among similar tasks. Kudos to all people out there who are working in sectors that are not expected by them to work and breaking stereotypes.

Note : This is not a gender sensitive opinion. I'm not trying to point out that men only mistreat women. It's gender centric and I show huge respect to all those people especially MEN who appreciate women and put their choices to priority.

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G.Rakshitha

Purpose of life

I don't feel I am a kid anymore, neither do I feel like an adult, but a question has been continuously striking in my neurons for a while now!

What is the purpose of life?

I have heard quite a lot of answers to this one question. I finally understood that everyone has their own definition of the purpose of life.

Some of them feel, their purpose in life is to reach God by 'Sadhana"(the practice of praying the god).

Some of them told that their purpose is to make sure, their future generations had a better life.

                                         

And the remaining don't know their purpose of life & were just going with the flow.

                                         

I tried to answer the question for myself and came out with an answer.

I feel that the following should be the practices of everyone so that they accomplish the purpose of their life consciously or unconsciously (including me) :

1.Being thankful to the creator: 

           If you are a theist, be thankful to the creator, for all the creations.

           

           If you are an atheist, then wonder and appreciate the evolution of nature to the present day.

                                        

2.Have empathy:

           Have some empathy. It helps an individual to grow up wisely. It builds better relations between different life forms and within them. It brings you respect from elders as well as underlings.

By this, your presence might not be cherished but absence is definitely felt.

                                         

3.Helping others:

        It is the most important than any other practice of one's life. If we were to come up with solutions to all the difficulties that we face by ourselves, then we would have been placed in individual mazes rather than in one world collectively.

             So, help others.

                                   

4.Have a purpose for your profession:

            If you don't have a purpose for your profession and are not admiring it, then you are life but not living. So, have a purpose for your profession, if not please quit & do something you reverve. The greater the purpose of your profession, the greater is your career. The greater your career, the more people you are inspiring.

                                     

Inspiring others is what I feel like the greatest purpose of one's life.

These are what I feel the practices in one's life should be. I am just 22 years old and some of you who are reading this might have a professional life greater than or equal to my age, but, yeah, this is what I have understood about life & it's purpose till now.

If you feel that some more points can be added, please feel free to comment below.

- Gonwar Srinidhi Rao

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