PROLOUGUE: 

I met with an accident on 5th of October, 2020 which after few days, led to clots in my left eye and brain, paralyzing my right limbs. After being admitted in hospital and proper treatment I was able to walk with a little help by 19th of October, 2020. After everything seemed normal, I learnt that even after clearing of clot in the left eye, my vision wasn't clear. My neurologist referred me to another neuro-physician and an ophthalmologist and I was treated accordingly. Tomorrow, I need to go through a test which would determine the progress of the treatment or in other words, recovery of my eye.

THE TEST 

I have been through this not once, not twice but a number of times anyone can imagine. Here, I am speaking about the tests I have given in my 24 years of life (till now). But the test I am going to give tomorrow is a special one. It may fix & strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else makes me change my goal & start over things again.

This test doesn't have any syllabus to go through and revise enough number of times. It is neither a practical so that I can by heart the process & required data. I believe it, as a test that would change my life or else keep me in my current life with more liveliness & laugh.

It's the "vision field test" for my left eye whose optic nerve is compressed by small fractures that occurred as a result of an accident on October 5, 2020. this may be a simple test, but for a 24 year old guy who never used a pair of spectacles and was full of life and laugh, met with an accident, bed ridden for 2 weeks and then learnt that he has blurred (almost no) vision with his left eye, dealing with PTSD, after treatment of 6 weeks and idleness of 8 weeks isn't a simple thing.

[All the above mentioned details weren't for sympathy but for empathy and better understanding only.]

It's been more than a month for me awaiting this test. It has become so much prominent that almost everything of my life is dependent on it. However, I am ready for either of the results of the test, positive or negative. I can strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else change my goal & start over again. Hope, everything that is going to happen tomorrow is for, not only mine but for everyone's good and prosperity. 

- Gonwar Srinidhi Rao.