PROLOUGUE: 

I met with an accident on 5th of October, 2020 which after few days, led to clots in my left eye and brain, paralyzing my right limbs. After being admitted in hospital and proper treatment I was able to walk with a little help by 19th of October, 2020. After everything seemed normal, I learnt that even after clearing of clot in the left eye, my vision wasn't clear. My neurologist referred me to another neuro-physician and an ophthalmologist and I was treated accordingly. Tomorrow, I need to go through a test which would determine the progress of the treatment or in other words, recovery of my eye.

THE TEST 

I have been through this not once, not twice but a number of times anyone can imagine. Here, I am speaking about the tests I have given in my 24 years of life (till now). But the test I am going to give tomorrow is a special one. It may fix & strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else makes me change my goal & start over things again.

This test doesn't have any syllabus to go through and revise enough number of times. It is neither a practical so that I can by heart the process & required data. I believe it, as a test that would change my life or else keep me in my current life with more liveliness & laugh.

It's the "vision field test" for my left eye whose optic nerve is compressed by small fractures that occurred as a result of an accident on October 5, 2020. this may be a simple test, but for a 24 year old guy who never used a pair of spectacles and was full of life and laugh, met with an accident, bed ridden for 2 weeks and then learnt that he has blurred (almost no) vision with his left eye, dealing with PTSD, after treatment of 6 weeks and idleness of 8 weeks isn't a simple thing.

[All the above mentioned details weren't for sympathy but for empathy and better understanding only.]

It's been more than a month for me awaiting this test. It has become so much prominent that almost everything of my life is dependent on it. However, I am ready for either of the results of the test, positive or negative. I can strengthen my zeal towards my goal or else change my goal & start over again. Hope, everything that is going to happen tomorrow is for, not only mine but for everyone's good and prosperity. 

- Gonwar Srinidhi Rao.

Frustrated Independent Women

Disclaimer : Raw Language used

Well the title already made you judge me?! I understand , people can take frustrated women and independent women but the three words together don't go that well.

You might have drawn some conclusions already:

I have a boyfriend.
I booze.
I have more male friends.
I use bad language.
I am a bitch.

Some of them are true and some aren't. Unfortunately you won't know what is true. Now what?!

It's not that women are emotionless, infact they are more sensitive and fragile but when she speaks more she is taken as a bitch and when not she is an egoist or in other ways she attracts men else is narrow minded.

There is so much of development and technology that we have access to today, our education system changed our advances with people changed. We are more open to foreign cultures, not just accepting them but also practicing them.

But is this really true?

Then why do we still hesitate to accept the choices of women?

Parents bhi alag level pe hote hein.

Bolte hein " Ja simran jeele apni zindagi, par 8.30pm tak ghar aajana. "
Seriously?! Is that freedom?!

Aur ek dialogue maarte hein 

" I believe you par society aachi nahi hein. "

By mistake agar boyfriend ho tho khatam.

" Baby I trust you but what was that xyz doing with you last evening!?"

My ideal response 

" Dear stupid, i work and stay in an environment where i have to be around guys and yes we hangout as well. Iska matlab ye nahi hota ki mein terko cheat kar rahi hu. When I commit for you, I am in."

Par ye usse samaj mein aatha tab na.

Friends are no less. Kyu kaam kar rahi ho? Why work so hard when you will eventually marry?! Why compromise your personal life?

Dude! If i was just to marry then why the hell did i pass all the exams, work so hard to score well in boards. 

I shouldn't marry because society feels it's right time or relatives question the family. I should and will marry only when I feel I need to, where in both of us are confident enough that we can settle together and not that I ask him money for everything.

I understand that all of us are made different biologically, but this difference should not be used to discriminate among similar tasks. Kudos to all people out there who are working in sectors that are not expected by them to work and breaking stereotypes.

Note : This is not a gender sensitive opinion. I'm not trying to point out that men only mistreat women. It's gender centric and I show huge respect to all those people especially MEN who appreciate women and put their choices to priority.

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G.Rakshitha