Note: Before reading this blog I suggest you to read previous blogs of this series, "My Lockdown 1 - The Fall" and "My Lockdown 2 - The Rise", if you did please do read once again.
After a few days I realized that I am not able to see with my left eye. We rushed to the hospital. My doctor after examining understood that my eye needs special treatment and referred me to another sophisticated hospital with doctors of much wider experience. It was diagnosed that the optic nerve of my left eye was damaged and the doctors immediately started treating it (the treatment which had to begin in the former hospital where it was not diagonized, not because of negligence though. Better late than never).
I missed my CDSEs and SSBs during treatment. Over a period of time I understood that I was no more medically fit for joining the armed forces (my goal at that point of time). It's been a couple of years since my treatment started, the improvement has been great. Meanwhile, I rejoined my company. On the advice of my doctor I left my job after couple of months and came home. I took rest for 2 more months and thought about my future. The plans of my career lay shattered, my treatment was still in progress and some more rest would only make my brain idle. An empty brain is a devil's den, I did not want my brain to be it.
The regular tests to track the recovery of my optic nerve were only stressing me and I started over eating, slowly loosing control of my mental and physical health. After a while, I understood that through constantly monitoring myself and decided to take control of my physical and mental health. I set new goals, started pushing myself towards them. Today, though I have not reached my goals, I feel better than the day I started and would continue this journey till my goals are achieved. I am sure I would not stop there, for what is life but persistent struggle for well being of people around us and inner peace.
- G. Srinidhi rao.
